Conflict

"You guys look like a couple that never even fights" were the words my brothers girlfriend Trina said to me one day. While it is nice to appear that way , that is far from the truth. We fight just like everybody else. At this current time we might fight more than everyone else however. We have been dealing with stress for the past almost 2 years and it has finally gotten to us.
Last night we got into an argument that was never suppose to happen . Any outsider looking in will think are problems are so small and not even worth fighting for. That person is right. I have no real problem with my husband, and to my believe he has no real problem with me. What we do have is stress. Stress from work, life, selling the house, the future, our boys. We let this stress get to us and we take it out on the only person that is around.
You know how they say that you shouldn't fight in front of your kids, until now I thought mine being 1 and 2 were too young to know what was going on. Boy was I wrong. Yesterday in our home when we started raising our voices, little Hayden ran over to us yelling at the top of his lungs. Of course he was speaking Hayden so no real words were spoken but anger was in his voice and he was trying to get a point across. Mommy and Daddy you need to stop fighting!
My children are my worlds. ......My family is my world. I am so ready for this season in our life to be over and to start a new one. A happier one!
So we are looking for a new home church this weekend. Hopefully we can find one. We really do need to get back into going. Ill let you guys know how all this turns out.

Let's Pray
Father, thank You for the peace You bring to my life. I celebrate You as the Prince of Peace and Lord of Lords. Please help me to be a woman of peace. I pray that You will help me learn how to confront others in a way that pleases and honors You and restores others.

In Jesus' name,
Amen.

I heart Thursdays!

I am participating in this weeks I "heart"... at You and Me Plus Three. Go there now to add yours and read others!!

So this week has been pretty blah...But here are some things I heart this week.

1. I heart the way Brody runs away when he sees you coming, like he knows he is doing something wrong.

2. I heart the way Hayden refuses to have his diaper changed.

3. I heart American Idol....Andrew and Crystal to be exact.

4. I love my new budget friendly makeup...I will try to post reviews later...BYE BYE MAC...

5. I love sale racks!

6. I love Avoacados.

7 . I love Mexican Food.

HA hah see not that eventful....

Get Real Mondays

Ok so today I'm going to get real and vent about a situation that has happened twice in the past 2 weeks. So yesterday we (My husband and I) decided that we needed to get out of the house and just go somewhere. We knew it would need to be somewhere indoors since Spring came in at 40 degrees. Bass Pro shop just sounded fun to me . I knew there was fish tanks and animals for the kids to look at so we were going to head that way. My husband jumped in the shower, I had gotten myself ready during the kids earlier nap so I was ready to go. I proceeded with getting the oldest one changed, fed and ready. By the time I was done my husband had already got done getting ready. He told me to put the boys in the car that HE was ready to go . So I placed Hayden in the truck and put on his movie. I asked my husband to go outside with him because I am very much against leaving children in a running vehicle! So he left ....1 minute later I heard honking. I was like Ok he cant seriously be rushing me. I finished changing Brody and fixing up the diaper bag. At that time he opened the door and yelled at me to hurry ........Oh no no no no ha ha....at this point I was so upset because Not only did he get mad about having to be outside. He told me I should have common sense to get everything ready before leaving. COMMON SENSE? He had to shower , change and worry about himself and I had to take care of the rest of us. And I was being rushed. He had not helped me, offered to help and he was getting mad at me. He had done this the week before which made me even madder...Sorry for being so Real...but it made me so mad!......

He later apologized and said he was just so stressed from it being so windy . I explained that I had nothing to do with the weather and taking it out on me was not the way to go . So we kissed and made up and went to bed....Real enough for you? ha ha

I heart......

I am participating in this weeks I "heart"... at You and Me Plus Three. Go there now to add yours and read others!!

So often i find myself writting about the struggles of daily life. I wanted to participate in I heart Thursdays ...so here it goes

1. I love my two beautiful baby boys!
2. I love that my marraige is getting back on track!!!
3. I love that God is showing me that he has never left in so many ways!
4. I love that when I let my situation go to him , Things really did start turning around!!
5. I love Brodys 4 teeth and the way the show when he smiles.
6. I love Haydens dance moves and singing.
7. I love that my husband is so real.
8. I love my parents and brothers!
9. I love my coworkers for talking for me when my voice is gone!
10. I love how amazing my anniversary was.
11. I love the fact that Life looks so much brighter in the last week!
12. I love Pizza.
13. I love my inlaws and all the blessings they send our way!
14. I love my Aunt Renee
15. I love makeup
16. I love Target


ok thats enough for now.....

Update!

Well first today is my husband and 3 year wedding anniversary!!!!! We made it 3 years and counting! I am so lucky to be in love with the man I call my husband. We have our ups and downs but I would never trade him for anything in this world. Things are beginning to look brighter on the other side ..so of course the stress level has gone down ...so the marriage has gone up!!! Right now we are in progress of our selling our house. If all works out well we should be out by April 15!!! However this is not set in stone yet. SO PLEASE KEEP SENDING PRAYERS OUR WAY!!!

Get real ....again

Satan is trying to stir things up in my marriage AGAIN!!! We were doing so good. We are doing so good. I think all the stresses of life have my husband confused. But I will try my hardest to make him refall in love with me. To get us back to that place we use to be. I need to put my hurt aside and my big girl shoes on and fight for my marriage!!!! You will not win Satan …..Not today ….Not ever!!!!!!!!!

Get Real Monday!

This weekend was so so exhausting for me! I did so much and have nothing to show for it. If you walk into my house at this moment you would think I am the laziest person in the world. I have a upside down playroom , Laundry all over the place, dishes in the sink, and Lord knows what laying all over the house. Yesterday my children woke up on the wrong side of the crib! They cried and screamed about 90% of the day. And not the oh no I'm hurt ...or hungry ...or sleepy cry....It was the he took my toy, I want to watch Wow Wow Wubzy, I don't want nuggets I want cookies cry. My husband doze off for about 5 minutes before I woke him up with a slam of the door. He ran in to see whats the matter.I was on the floor. I told him that I needed to remove myself from the situation before giving them shaking baby syndrome...We sat and laughed about it for a second before going back into the madness. So even if I write about how amazing my children are, and you see me showering them with love! I need to get real and let you know that My kids are not always angels. They push my buttons the best way they know how. Today they woke up pretty happy and made my morning routine less stressful than yesterday (had to leave on a good note ha ha) So we will see what the rest of the week has in store for us.

Dear Heavenly Father, I will admit, sometimes I get so scared when the storms of life rock my boat. Thank You that You are in the boat with me, that You will never leave me and that You are always right by my side. That is what You promised. That is what I know to be true.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen.


I have to admit that lately I have felt the presence of God in the boat with me through this still rocky ride. (And im not talking about the cruise haha ) You would say duh its easy for you to say that you just went on a vacation, things should be looking good. Nope. On our way back from the cruise we did our taxes, to find out we pretty much came out even . Then the accountant told me I had to adjust my exemptions ...so what does that mean? Readjust the budget..yet again. Then on our way home we got pulled over! Yup for going 48 in a 45!!!! Can you believe that. Not even a warning...we got an actual ticket! Calmly however we accepted these hits of life. I think going on the cruise and being away from the normal stresses of life really helped out a bunch! We found love we forgot we had. We realized that it wasnt us , because taking us out of our everyday life , everything changed. I pray to God that may marriage keeps going forward, our situation keeps going forward , and my faith stays strong.
Brian's company has a new general manager and things look promising . So please keep that in your prayers as well. The house is due to short sale before next month . Still no buyers so I will keep praying for that as well. I have faith tho....faith that whatever happens is for a reason. He has a plan.....I just dont know what it is yet. As for right now....I know he is in my boat !