Get Real Monday!

This weekend was so so exhausting for me! I did so much and have nothing to show for it. If you walk into my house at this moment you would think I am the laziest person in the world. I have a upside down playroom , Laundry all over the place, dishes in the sink, and Lord knows what laying all over the house. Yesterday my children woke up on the wrong side of the crib! They cried and screamed about 90% of the day. And not the oh no I'm hurt ...or hungry ...or sleepy cry....It was the he took my toy, I want to watch Wow Wow Wubzy, I don't want nuggets I want cookies cry. My husband doze off for about 5 minutes before I woke him up with a slam of the door. He ran in to see whats the matter.I was on the floor. I told him that I needed to remove myself from the situation before giving them shaking baby syndrome...We sat and laughed about it for a second before going back into the madness. So even if I write about how amazing my children are, and you see me showering them with love! I need to get real and let you know that My kids are not always angels. They push my buttons the best way they know how. Today they woke up pretty happy and made my morning routine less stressful than yesterday (had to leave on a good note ha ha) So we will see what the rest of the week has in store for us.

Dear Heavenly Father, I will admit, sometimes I get so scared when the storms of life rock my boat. Thank You that You are in the boat with me, that You will never leave me and that You are always right by my side. That is what You promised. That is what I know to be true.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen.


I have to admit that lately I have felt the presence of God in the boat with me through this still rocky ride. (And im not talking about the cruise haha ) You would say duh its easy for you to say that you just went on a vacation, things should be looking good. Nope. On our way back from the cruise we did our taxes, to find out we pretty much came out even . Then the accountant told me I had to adjust my exemptions ...so what does that mean? Readjust the budget..yet again. Then on our way home we got pulled over! Yup for going 48 in a 45!!!! Can you believe that. Not even a warning...we got an actual ticket! Calmly however we accepted these hits of life. I think going on the cruise and being away from the normal stresses of life really helped out a bunch! We found love we forgot we had. We realized that it wasnt us , because taking us out of our everyday life , everything changed. I pray to God that may marriage keeps going forward, our situation keeps going forward , and my faith stays strong.
Brian's company has a new general manager and things look promising . So please keep that in your prayers as well. The house is due to short sale before next month . Still no buyers so I will keep praying for that as well. I have faith tho....faith that whatever happens is for a reason. He has a plan.....I just dont know what it is yet. As for right now....I know he is in my boat !

Today

Today did not start off very good. I wont go into details but Satan was at work trying to destroy what God had restored yesterday. I was so weak , especially in the morning. I however will not ...NOT....let him win! God is with me , Gos is near , when God is with me I have NO fear!

Girlfriends in God .....Marriage

How much of your marriage do you want Jesus to transform How much of your marriage have you given Him?
I want to give all of it to him, but unfortunetly not all of it is right now. My Marriage has recently taken some hard hits. My hubby and I constantly come home stressed from work and often times take it out on each other. We know that its not the right thing to do , however we often do it. I wish and pray that our faith keeps growing stonger each day so we can let go our worries and just let it all go to him. However we are human, we do fail at times and we let it just get to us. My husband is very very unhappy at his job and the situations they place him in. I am unhappy watching my husband change from this man that loved his work to dreading another day on. We are however thankful God has provided both of us with an income. Right now we are just having trouble seeing the cup half full. Often times we try to restore our honeymoon stage, and often times we fail. I know this is a season in our lifes and having two small children makes it even harder during these times.

How much of your attitude do you want Jesus to transform? How much of your attitude have you given Him? Oh goodness I need a transformation. Im bipolar when it comes to my faith. haha Sometimes Im full of it and other days not so much. I wish I had an on button I could just leave switched on at all times haha . I am however geting better at letting smaller things go.

How much of your _____situation_____ do you want Jesus to transform? (You fill in the blank.) How much have you given Him? The whole thing we are going through with the house, Brians Jib, Air force...etc. I guess Like I said , I have not fully given it over to him. Maybe it is time for me to let go , know his timing is always perfect, have faith . Enjoy the time here ...now... and worry about later, when later happens. Its easier said than done. But with the help of my christian family and friends I know I can one day FILL MY CUP TO THE BRIM!!

"Dear Lord, I pray that I will be like the servants who did exactly what you told them to do. My desire is to obey you fully...to the brim. Help me not to hold back anything but give You all of me so that you can transform me totally.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen. "

Faith

So its a new day and everything is still the same. We are still selling the house, we still have no idea what the future has in store for us, and we are still in Houston. Yesterday I tormented myself and logged on to HAR.com , the real estate website here in Houston and saw that competition is crazy!! There are houses going for like 90,000 dollars!!! I just pray to God that the house sells and we are able to get out soon. My husband is more unhappy every day that passes at his work. They keep pileing on the work and job sites are picking up. It breaks my heart to hear how horrible his day was. I wish I could just tell him to quit, but reality is he cant . We need to sell the house and move. I knew that buying the house 2 years ago was a mistake especially with his job moving us often...or so we thought it would....
I just wish I could go back to the day I got so excited and run away ...run as far away from those closing papers.

Ok on another note....Brody will be 1 next weekend!!! I cant believe how the time just flew by so fast~ I feel like just yesterday I was eating everything I could dip in ranch and waiting for the little guuy to get here. Last night he had a ruff night! He was not excited about sleeping at all. Well anyways thats pretty much all the update I have. Bye

OOOooood Moooorninn Hayden

OOOooood Mooornin is what I hear every time I walk into Haydens room now! I think it is by far the best way to start my day . I walk in he stands straight up , looks at me , with his crazy bed head hair , pops his Binky out of his mouth, and says it loud and with a smiling face. He is getting so talkative now days. Like this morning I was holding him like a baby like I always do and he looked at me and said "put me down mom". Ha ha ...Yeah Im not mama or mommy. Im mom. Ill take what I can get since in earlier stages we could not get him to say mama for anything haha. He is getting so big and he amazes me more everyday with things he knows that I have never showed him. He knows his numbers from 1-10 but he has Little trouble with seven. He knows allot of the alphabet, not in order , but he can recognize allot of the letters. You know for a little guy that didn't walk till 18 months he is catching up pretty fast.

Then there are also little things that remind me how small he still is ,like this morning he saw my vegetable oil bottle. He pointed to it so excitedly and asked me for corn. I explained to him that It was a picture of corn and not actual corn. Well that turned into about a half hour meltdown. So I packaged him up some steamable corn and sent it with him to the Nanny's haha.

That was my morning with Hayden.

I leave you with some of his favorites

Cartoon Character: Wow Wow Wubzy or Spongebob
He loves to wear: Footie Pajamas
He loves to : Brush his teeth!!!
Favorite Food: Spaghetti, French Fries and Chicken
Favorite Drink : Caprisun pouches

3 DAY WEEKEND

My weekend was kinda blah! haha My coworker asked me what I did this weekend. I told her nothing just lounged around the house, clean etc. She said that sometimes thats good, and I said yeah not when thats what you do every weekend!!!! haha

Its true we hardly have been able to do anything , due to a) budget and b) the cold weather. My head even hurts from staying in . Well it was also a pretty emotional weekend. One of my little brothers ended his relationship with his girlfriend. It brouhgt back old feeling I had not felt in awhile. I dont know but I get really attached to my brothers girlfriends. Probably becasue I have no sisters of my own. I was just so heartbroken to hear how sad she was. I guess in the back of my mind I figured I could fix it , But I couldnt. I cant really go into details but it got bad.

So I prayed with her, and hopefully everything will be okay now...plus I told her just cause they broke up does not mean we did haha.

Yesterday my nanny had me watch the boys cause she had a funeral to attend. Her daughter had a baby stillborn and she needed to attend. So that was the reason for my unexpected 3 day weekend. Dont have much to update. Have a good day!